Photo by Pia Walker, Copyright © Attaining Creativity 2008   

I find myself calmer, more centered, even though this whole journey is so unknown. I allowed yesterday to be a day of simply learning, of not rushing around and trying to push for something that perhaps was not true, or necessary, or even good.

I allowed creativity to fester in my mind overnight, simmering in my lengthy sleep, so that I could awaken this morning, to gray clouds and still find the sunshine, the desire to have a wonderful day.

And so it was. My mental list of things to do was accomplished in the unwritten deadlines I had given myself. And I found myself reworking a project, but from a different angle. I saw myself playing again, with simple lines, and I smiled.

A month or so ago, after my daily exercise of simply painting had allowed me to arrive at an art style that really was a compilation of everything I had drawn in my youth, I found myself creating 6 lines on a piece of sketch paper and crying. My sketch had few details yet it conveyed everything I needed to, at that moment. I was crying because I could not believe that after such rough trials, I had arrived at my calling in the simplest manner. I could not believe that after creating abstract drawings that started in darkness, for that is where my mind was at the time, I was sketching a simple landscape with waves of mountains and a simple character watching it all.

As I have mentioned in a previous blog entry, I have wavered from such a drawing, a style. Yet I find myself back there again and know that that is where I will remain, at least for a long while. I may tweak, I may expand, but if I can have that joy of simply placing conté lines on a piece of paper and seeing a woman be drawn with 4 lines, I will be happy and content.

And I have to give gratitude to my wavering, for I have found pieces of styles that fit well with my latest creations. It is as if I needed to waver to get some missing pieces. And so nothing has been for lost. The detour I took has gotten me back to the main road of my creativity and my style, and I have had some fun along the way.

I have spent this Earth Day just enjoying the whole process, not feeling rushed while still accomplishing. I have sat outside in the noon hour, to enjoy the last bits of sun before the rains arrive, and I have found a caterpillar wondering along the deck rail. This little yellow caterpillar will bloom into a beautiful butterfly, and the grape vine that he finally found already has tiny buds that will become actual grapes come harvest time. It is as if the Earth itself is reminding me that there is a time and season for everything, and that all the things that may feel small today will bloom at a later date and arrive at just the right time.

Enjoy this season of growing and expanding and continue on the journey to attaining creativity!

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